Whoa there. Talk about a two month vacation from the xanga world. I admit... i've become a myspace whore. oops. well things have been... going. cal poly slo... movin', growin' up, and all that bullshit. my mother is so proud of me and that makes me very happy. things right are so all over the place. one minute crazy violent and pissed off and the absolute next minute i'm crazy happy with the things i've fallen into. can't promise more regulars, so hit up the myspace.

So many things feel so sketch and so on the brink of going one way or another right now and I guess only time will tell which side of the fence things land on. Wow, this is much to handle. Off to squash it with more homework and eventual sleep.

Wow, I needed those reminders of what truly fabulous people are indeed in my life.

And one of the truest things I've ever read: "If you're in a long term relationship, after a while, you have to know its not about the spontaneous, lovy dovy stuff. And when you feel that the excited feeling isn't there anymore, its natural. You have to realize that the special someone has turned into a companion not just an attraction. Just be glad you're with someone that cares so deeply about you. It doesn't make sense to me why someone would give up something they already have, when they know that no one else can take that place."

And sometimes that situation morphes into something entirely new that looks to be better than anything a person could have possibly imagined in the first place.

On a totally separate and different note.

This is a good feeling. I feel out of my slump and blah-ness. Someone remind me of the way I feel and think right this very instant (bff - that'd need to be you).

I like my bffs list of random feelings. And so here's mine: stressed, burnt out, tired, sad, bummed, irritated, frustrated, angry, optomistic, pessimistic, anxious, eager, lost.

Normally: *me* _______________________________________________*my breaking point*

Currently: *me* _ *my breaking point*

Ack.